krustyflakes

Se quedó en silencio, perdió el encanto
mentiras sin llanto.
Dejo de ser, dejo de estar, y en un suspiro
despertar.
Hoy existe, ayer y mañana fueron parte de
su imaginar.
Quedo huérfano y sin nostalgia, pelo chino
nada mas.

Slow down, please, slow down
I need to find peace anywhere in me
I feel like I’m under water, struggeling to get air
I feel like I’m lost in this body, trying to get inside my head

I wanna know what I’m thinking, what I’m feeling
What iI want my life to be
I wanna know how I like plan to make things easier
For everyone but me

Tell me, please, tell me
What to do now, now that I know myself
Do you really think I could rely on this new person I have become
Do you really think I give a damn now that I can do whatever I want

Now I know, what I’m thinking, what I’m feeling
What I want my life to be
Now I wanna know how I like to make things easier
For everyone including me

This time of night I could call you up
I’d get angry with athletic ease, break common laws in twos and threes
If I die clutching your photograph
Don’t call me boring, It’s just ’cause I like you
Take me on back… take me back
To the place where I could feel your heart
Is this the end or just the start of
Something really, really beautiful
Wrapped up and disguised as something really, really ugly,

Won’t you…

Come by and see me, I’m a love letter away
I’d break your name before I’d say, “I really love you, love you, ”
I don’t care if you saw, I watched every inch of film
Flash across your Roman features,
And I loved it, loved it; I don’t care if

You think I’m eager to shut your eyes, well
I’m sorry-everybody knows you can’t break me with your gutter prose
Would you believe it, she sent me a letter,
The ring, it nearly weighs her down, she’s got another boy, oh boy
Steady your ears… read my lips
Poetry is not a luxury, it’s how I’ll break this home
And when I’m really ill, won’t you cradle me?
Man is not a noble animal, but maybe woman is, remember,

I heard you…

Inside your room, you said, “You never really live
Until your back’s against the wall, ” oh did you really mean it?
I never break my gaze, if just to see this scar remain reflected in your eyes
I think it’s time to go home

GUITAR SOLO

Oh, tell me your thoughts, tell me your thoughts on liberty,
See there’s a place where I sink to sleeping
Oh, my vote is as red as my blood
Will you join me for another round? I haven’t had the chance to speak yet

God speed…

I break the law once every week to feel your touch,
What’s a book to you in bed, Do you feel better, older?
This just makes me ill, your name is dripping from my pen
Still you’re not around to curse,
I’ll drop the gun now, I’m still under you…

Marianne, let the ghosts sleep tonight.
Marianne, let the ghosts sleep, just shut your eyes and burn the past away

sin mucho drama las palabras parecen ser mas pesadas, sin llanto y desilusión volcar las emociones es una tarea mas ardua, sin embargo sigo en pie y con mucho que decir. A falta de otro medio y en obscuridad total envio al universo, a la nada, a nadie en particular este escrito, tras meses de espera, de sufrir, de ansiedad y de ceguera llego la luz y brios de un nuevo día. Deja ir y si es tuyo regresara, sino es que nunca lo fue. De nuevo el sentido de posesión ante todo y todos. Nadie es mío ni lo fue ni lo será y no lo deseo. Ella tampoco fue ni es ni lo será le pertenece solo al viento y habita en los recuerdos. La soñé ayer con mayor intensidad que nunca, escuche su voz fuerte y claro, puede ser que solo idealice su corazón y dramatice los actos, la realidad es que sus acciones no hablaron fuerte y sus palabras cada día se fueron marchitando. La deje atrás en mi pasado colmado, pero admito que sigue a mi lado en mi corazón se ha incrustado. Me canse de su desprecio, ya no mas. Me canse de su falta de dirección y el vacío en su boca solo viento sin sustancia que distraía mi memoria. Me canse y ya no mas he de vivir en paralelo un sueño en vida y vida sin sueño, esperando cada día ver su llegada a mi lado. Ya no mas esperar que mañana traiga dicha, mi vida es dicha por mi cuenta y mi cuenta dice basta ya, no hay mas que contar en este relato de amor y olvido, donde el Amor no pudo con la distancia y la costumbre fue protagónico en mi esperanza. Un beso al viento y mi alegría no escapa, a ti siempre pero nunca y mi añoranza, te dejo pues mi dulce remembranza. Pecar es digno cuando se ama y peco_sa_biendo que te vivi y te llore sin guardarme nada.

De nuevo a plasmar por escrito lo que guarda mi cabeza. Quise tomarme un segundo para dar gracias por todo lo que este año me ofreció, un trabajo nuevo, una vida nueva, amigos nuevos, una novia antigua, felicidad, llanto, quejas, confusión, depresión, alegría, fiesta, aburrimiento, Mucho trabajo. Pero tomando todo, que me queda decir respecto a este año. Crecí mucho, re valoré tanto, me di cuenta que puedo ser quien yo quiera ser, que aun cuando tengo el corazón de un niño, estoy listo para seguir mi camino como adulto y recorrerlo hasta ser anciano, que puedo volver a tener miedo, que puedo volver a amar y sufrir por ello. Que no soy una piedra, un robot, un sociopata sin sentimiento ni emoción, soy eso y tantas cosas mas. Soy un amigo, un soñador, un desarrollador con buen trabajo, un skater cada día mas tieso y Malo que sin embargo cada día ama con mas fuerza su pasado. Soy también un hombre de 31 años, que desea empezar una familia, tener hijos, comprar su propia casa, emprender su propio camino. Hace 12 meses pensaba en otra vida, tenia otras perspectivas vivía otras realidades, quiero dar gracias por las carencias, por los golpes de cabeza y los nuevos despertares, este próximo año empieza con mas fuerza, no tengo 18 pero a mis 31 siento que hoy mas que nunca el mundo esta lleno de posibilidades a mi alcance, deseo comerme la vida y hacer que cada segundo de esta aventura invaluable valga mucho mas que antes con una gran sonrisa por delante a lo que sea que me depare.

when we live with whatever comes tomorrow
the plan is short sighted.

I see the future with you
and tomorrow comes as an endless path

I worry, theres sorrow there laughter and crying
i love filling my life with LIFE!

Void is no longer mine
and tomorrow makes sense and worthy for I!

Like it shoul be, life goes easy sometimes
and so it is, another turn and a wall
another face has gone and sorrow is off

Theres more to it, and more to me
and paths coincide sometimes, sprokets set
things to come start now, and so we live
collide and die.

As flowers bloom to die and feed the earth
so does life cycle out and regenerate
The end is the beginning the end nothings set
good bye to you freckled face.

Waiting for a letter is SO passe, waiting for an email is so Cliche, why wait, why sit down and think something through,BURP out anything that comes to your head, and with our means, theres a way, that it’ll reach and get far away. Its  not about the message anymore, its all about the medium, its all about the speed you reach out, it all about gettin out and staying IN, 15 seconds is all you get, to COME and be gone, to get you fix, to spread your wealth, to Cash in, check out and, be yourself Passe. Our humanity is a trend, recycled by the few to keep the most under a charming spell and profit from them, their private heard.

The human has an amazing ability to cope with challenges. We can cope with fear, distrust, pain, agony even love, expectation, but never all that well to deal with Ourselves. The greatest fear is fear itself and who better to inflict IT than yours truly, our worst enemy, Us!. You can forget your fear to flight and take a plane, you can forget for ONE night that you hate meeting strangers and have a fling. But when when its all settled, who better to crush a spirit, and send confidence flat on its back than our fear trusting, being disappointed, feeling like an ass, kidding ourselves. Going round and round just to set it straight, to get the true meaning, to not forget a single detail. FEAR what you know and be terrified by all that you don’t, cause if you are lucky, one day you will and you’ll have to answer to yourself.

long nights and harsh days, endless passing of time, wishing to learn, begging to wright breath in, life Out, walking past the original conflict, walk over and be witness how it fades out. From the distance realize how fragile and empty Greatness becomes as it turns into decadence. Live for your sake Know thyself and perish to your greatness, live for the rest lose yourself to oblivion, ignorance and indifference.

Big words and thoughts will eventually break you ……. while being humble will guide away, lead the way and free thyself.

Only gals for Pals
and the Gals are lover
so Pals can’t bother to meet each other
cause their not friends nor are they loving
its just frivolous passion and misunderstanding

Many people have stated that man wears masks through out his life, we tend to wear one to protect our selves, we wear them to seam like we are different, we wear them to change and adapt to what we wish we were. But at the end there’s just one self that can change, that may evolve and rearrange, bottom line we shall stay true to who we were, face who we really are and start paving the way for who we want to eventually release of anymore masks. “behind this mask there’s more than flesh, behind this mask there’s an idea, and Ideas are Bullet Proof”

Perfect life, perfect woman by your side, respect from your peers, admiration from the hive and yet you have to give it all up to seek a Different tune, an upbeat scale to make you smile and exhilarate, one blink, just one more time. 

So choices, decisions, old habits fighting hard NOT to die. but there comes a time when, you just have to let it all out, and Be goddam honest with yourself, what do you need? how will you get what you need? follow that path and Chase after what you really want cause, life’s not waiting for you, you are the one waiting up for your life.

they lived happily ever after, so the story ends right there, but thats just the beginning and it is the Best part to IT, when troubles sits, when discussion arises, when we get to learn and really share, thats what comes with happily ever after. Up, downs, left, rights, shake, stir, and at the end we smile, because we tried to overcome our misfortune and enjoy the blessings, bottom line we stayed for the rest of the Show and cared to watch. So disney cut the story short, gave a much disrupted vision of what life would eventually turn, made us Dream of Nothingness after happiness, and we all swallowed up. Care to stay for the rest of the Struggle, you’ll cry, you’ll smile, and i swear at the end it will all be worth while, if you let yourself be, make your spirit grow and enjoy every second of IT taking it all, as it comes.

There’s a Mirage up in front of us, desire, aspiration, blunt expectation, there’s One time for it, one mood to us as we roll around trying to drink up. We miss to accept that it might not be there, but dreaming is what makes us, desire is what breaks us. Indulge your wildest thoughts, explore the forbidden, those who dare to dream shall drink and quench their thirst, those Brave enough to fail and suffer shall make all their dreams worthy of someday being what they Live in.

Obsession, rejection and the bastard child to infatuation
a tingling thought that surrounds a blissful aura
not a ghost, a grudge that blisters deep to my persona
As egos burst and free will plunders

The night sets clear as stars as recovered
no one to talk but spirits under cupboards 
cling clang the tune is shuffled
one two i talk it all in three four run into scuffle 

Know yourself to free your surrounding
love yourself to create what you are after.
As what comes goes, and the mean time  recovers
the one you give is the reflection of the Hollow

Sing a song while life gives you sorrow
bring your soul to the party of my brother
i was lost at the spot and the mind of the others
gave me a smile and sang me the chorus.

Up down the mood of the corner
the Left right was a holly recover
to one two i repeat to my mother
that this might just become one another.

The days go by and  we all just discover
one smile that unites all of my brothers
cling clang we sing with the bottle
dismissed is now the sad faces forgotten.

As a kid it was never hard to make the right call, being the Hermit i usually were, i had nothing to loose. With age people become less of a social and more of and Anti, we tend to treasure what’s great about life, and a lot of people just stop looking altogether. They settle  for what they’ve got and wish it never goes away. So come the time when letting go, when making the right Call is just TOO damn hard, because change and disruption of ones own life, leads to chaos. When you are a kid changing things meant, nothing, you had your Whole life ahead to make fixes, you had the BEST excuse “you are learning” so you could never be really blamed for anything. As a grown man, Life is your oyster and responsibility, your kingdom, you have to protect it and most of time, it means you have to SUCK it up, and MAKE the right choice even though it will shake the ground beneath you. Every change gets harder, with every choice turns bitter, but as entropy needs work to stop chaos, also life NEEDs to be worked at to Flow through you

The berrics represents pretty much every skaters dream come true, now get Ellington to make magic and remind me why i love Skateboarding and, thats my dream come true. ENJOY skateboarding!!

One thought, to come face to face with, in this never ending sea of Words and experiencies, shocked and in awe, one sometimes encounters that a line can set things straight, a truth can change your ways, and it all tends to set minds Free. So words of wisdom never leave, words of anything come true to me. Say what you mean, and please mean what you say; it makes a whole Lot of difference to the once paying attention to you as a friend. Happiness born of pasion is always short lived, and so will the dreamer have to confront this truth at will, but the words may harm and the sound might shutter, but the live you lived will stay much longer.

some words will accompany this video with time, but for now, its just a treat to listen up, take it all in and see what happens. Enjoy

As far back as anyone can recall, there’s been that guilt spot in the shade, my own private burden, discourages my deepest believes and sends it all back to the aged old question “are you taking a sweater with you?”.

Guilt acts in mysterious ways, turns the brave, the cool, into the least equipped piece of flare, primitive actors if you may, unable to excel, “i’ve got the script, i OWN the part” yet IT wont allow me to convey.

Fly away little one, set wings free and full of strength, the time has come to kiss goodbye and fade away. What’s to come is the path you know, and the lines you’ve already rehearsed, but doubt yourself and fool your mind, is the one thing you can betray. Be true to Yourself THAT’ll SET you free, fear what you did and who you were and GUILT will eat you up piece by piece.

So goodbye my fair well, run away with a smile … the world will turn, days go by, and your stories wont be lies. Trued and chance to those who flow, to those who dare to dream and change, cause they own more than anyone else, they’ve truly come to master themselves.

It does not matter if you are 4 or almost 30, the time will come when life takes a pass on you, when circumstances make things blurry and you come face to face with decisions that Will inevitably need you attention, dont just stand there, be true to yourself, keep on going and reach for the Sun!!!

I dont think its wise to keep on going, it s a never ending road to travel, but a harsh and disappointing one if kept on. Too much energy invested, too little gratification to hold on to. The End, thanks for the shoes, the bruises, laughter and All the cute funny stories.

Now i get it, its the RUSH, the adrenaline that comes with IT, and i realize i am Hooked all the way, I’m an Addict. Once you’ve tasted how sweet and comforting it can Get, theres no way you wont be after it every single Day. Your fix, an escape from everything, JUMPING to something intense, experiencing pasion, but Easy comes easy goes, never seams to stick long enough, and off we go leaving the past behind looking for the next FIX at this never ending Tale of Self absortion and conquest of someone Else to provide us with OUR prize.

And so we have to DO the Work and pay our dues, and only then we can get Our cake and eat

A few words of wisdom from my favorite thing on the Tube:

- nothing in this world thats worth having Comes easy
- Time spent wishing is Time wasted
- so you just gonna Roll over and give up, or finally get MAD and do something about IT!!!!
- Theres nothing Worse than bitterness and vengeance
- Always remain worthy and true to yourself
- Everybody always have a choice
- Having been fucked is no excuse for being fucked up
- b(1)II yourSelf
- the easiest way to Lose something, is wanting it too Badly
- i think the second you stop fighting time really is on your side

“hit or miss it makes no difference”, set you self high goals, look up proud of who you are, but always on eye level, dont you ever look down to people beside you, its greta to be proud with who you are, when you have made choices and set your own path, but i will never be content, i will never settle for Whats confortable, sit down still just waiting for IT to happen, why wait, why let things take their course when you can Take action and make IT happen, realize what IT is, go after it, struggle, suffer, fall to the ground, laugh out loud at what happens to you, pick yourself up and never stop, but this ride is traveling your path, your own way. Make a choice and go on, live LIFE, your life, fine tune along the way, dont let entropy bit you, correct your set course, and Go ON, its not a matter of reaching the Finish line, its all about the ride, traveling the path, learning, and picking yourself up, but you gotta keep walking no matter what, the scenario will change, people will come and just fade out, let go, free your mind, free yourself and TAKE it all, enjoy the Ride!

it really does not matter how we look at common life, or the common man, the truth is we all are our own worst enemy. Take any woman out there, whos their biggst judge, or any fellow doing bussines or planning to ask some girl out, its not a matter of opinion, its not judgement from peers, bottom line is, WE are the Ultimate opinion, we are the REAL thing, we are the WORST enemy we’ve got and will ever have to face, thats a fact of life, a fact of modern society, modern man and its endless pack of nonsence, there’s nothing left to do in this matter but to take things in a more acertive and proacctive manner, we have to Be True to ourselves. Lets take a step back, what does this really mean, how can we acomplish such a catchy Motto, its not hard once you’ve come to terms with yourself, Be true to what you have decided yuo are, you believe. It is fair to change views, thoughts, desires but It is important that AS long as you Own them, OWN them well and entirely, be true to them, respect your decisions, dont question your ways while you have certain believes, do it before you settle, do it before you make a choice, once you have, OWN it, accept the consecuences of who you turned into. The only way to never be wrong is to be honest and true, Change as much as you need to, But don’t contradict your ways, don’t contradict yourself, flow in your own surrounding, keeping in perspective that it was yours all along and it can be changed again, but first has to perish.